I’ve been staying up too late and sleeping too much. I’ve been eating a terrible diet and haven’t been as active as I would like.
Last night I forced myself into bed earlier than normal and I still slept about 10 hours and woke up tired.
I rolled out of bed and started getting ready for work. As I began to get ready I started to realize how much more refreshed I felt today; albeit not much.
I began to discern this marginal feeling and on my way to work I turned off my radio and started to think about how this relates to Jesus. Here are my thoughts:
If I had to put my happiness on a line with -10 being the worst feeling ever, 0 being perfectly content with no inspiration and 10 being Rocky Balboa beating Apollo in Rocky 2, then I would be about a -1. Ouch.
I’ve been at +8 many times but I’ve also been at -8. I think about those times; what it was like, what I was doing, why I’ve been there and how to get back to being my best.
It’s true how you don’t realize how good you’ve had something until it’s no longer there.
I could spend a very long time trying to explain all the things that make me feel like a million bucks and all the things that make me feel like a dirty smelly sock. I could try to embed a value to all my life decisions and do a calculation to try and figure out the sum of things that will bring me to +8.
Isn’t this exactly what the world teaches? That somehow happiness is a sum of all the things and choices in your life? If only I had done this and if only I had done that. Some people point fingers at each other and some people point fingers at them-self.
Let’s understand purity as an example of this. The Pharisees would wash their hands until they bled in order to feel clean. The Sadducees of the Dead Sea Scrolls would eat of bowls and throw them away once finished for the fear of contaminating them-self. Anyone who didn’t follow this practice was cast out.
What are we afraid of contaminating in our life? Are we afraid of contaminating our happiness? Are we afraid of not being at a +8? Isn’t this the root of anxiety, fear, hopelessness and depression?
Jesus was obviously not afraid of contamination. He spoke and touched anyone and everyone in all phases of life. No matter who he touched, healed or talked to he still remained holy and pure. He had nothing but his friends whom he loved, a pair of sandals, and his clothes.
What would Jesus’ happiness have been if we had to add a number. He was at +10, always. When he wept for Lazarus, when he was crucified, when he ate at the last supper, when he was tempted in the desert. He knew that right then, right there, in His life, God was with Him, always.
Jesus’ kept repeating that his disciples still did not believe, that they had little faith, that they had to see more of His works, more of His power to believe that what He was saying is true.
What they kept missing is that Jesus’ was trying to tell us is that God is with us always. When he spoke to his disciples, He told them to go out and proclaim that the “Kingdom of heaven is upon us.”
Let me return back to the happiness that I spoke about before. I ask myself about my emotions and this scale that I measure myself on and wonder how accurate this all is. The water from which we drink will eventually leave us and we will become thirsty again. Jesus provides the stream of eternal life.
All the things that bring us temporary happiness will fade. That perfect husband/wife, perfect body, money, etc.. Truly, these things are water that doesn’t last. Truly, we will be thirsty again in due time.
Truly, there is nothing of this world that can bring you everlasting happiness. And there is no scale to look at to measure your happiness.
So, instead, let us hear and understand the Truth and proclaim: the Kingdom of Heaven is upon us.